a thought

i was under the shower today when suddenly a thought pop into my mind.
it owe muchly to a blog posted by my friend riri, which rightly had reminded the martians, how we need to understand the venuses better, or at least appreciate them more.
the thought it self is not really common for us martians to ever would really seriously consider.
now lets drift around the topic for a while shall we?

those of you who knew me, have commented me as of course unique. rather predictable, yet uncommon. most might say childish, extremely talkative, aggressive, emotional, melancholic, some might even say rude or shy. but 1 comment that stood out the most to me, which was from a friend of mine, she sees me rather gay-ish. no offense for gay people, but i could never imagine myself being gay. grace would never agree to this comment, she once or maybe several times stressed that i can not live in this world without a girl in my life.

could you imagine, me being gay?
anyway true enough i have a strong feminist side in me, i could be very sensitive at time, emotional rather than logical, and so moody it seems i might have caught PMS .
these things ought to be almost enough to declare me a female. (sorry girls)

so then where were we, oh yeah my thought under the shower.

simple really, its about sacrifices. how i am brought to her perspective.
i was taking my early bath before church when i suddenly crave for tea. yeah tea.
sweet warm soothing tea. early in the morning , that would be lovely.
how great was it if i got someone to look after for me, and made me tea every once in a while.

but hey. that sounds familiar.

i had someone to look after me, HAD, rike did.

my memories suddenly unwind, to the days of the past, where she would be offering me a cup of tea of my personal flavour. even more than that. she would cook for me everyday, breakfast lunch and dinner too. but i never really appreciated her effort back then.
i mean i was thankful, but after reading riri's blog, i was brught into venus perspective of the story.

those simple moments which i consider nothing more than ordinary, would seemed special, if not romantic, when you think of the effort, the extra care and attention she poured into.
i did not realize it back then , might never would had i not read riri's blog.

does this mean i want to say sorry to my ex etc etc etc
no. past is the past, nice to have a look at them once a while. see our mistakes, try not to repeat them again. for you who has the chance to appreciate the acts of your beloved , please do so, before its too late. might seems nothing to you, but a smile or a thank you would be very welcome, an understanding of their act would be great, a return would be a dream come true.

as for me, i hope i forgot this silly idea next week, and be my normal self again.


just for reference here is her blog